sick...again...

i'm sick again..why? as usual..i'm really tired..i reached here from sabah around 2am 18/8/07..12pm on the same day, i have to go to my kursus kawin & it ended yesterday at 7pm..so now u understand why i'm so tired? and..i can't take leave for the whole this week coz of office commitment ... mama..i need a break :(

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Last weekend i went to my abg's hometown to settle our andam package..the price is so different compared to mine in KL..i wish i can get that range of price here..isskkk...mahalnye kat KL ni eh..

before that, before we reached his house, we went to Ayer Itam for window shopping..but as usual, me tak reti nak window2 nih..me terus beli gift utk guests (for the nikah ceremony)..very nice..original price rm7..but after less, rm3.50 per item..i bought 230 pieces..then on our way back to kl, singgah ke Nilai 3...i bought gift for guest (reception)..original price is rm2.90 per item, but after less, managed to get rm2 per item..so i bought 1300 ...then i bought bunga telur..very nice..color white & silver..cost me almost rm200 for 150 batang..overall last wknd (2 days) i've spent almost rm3000 just for the gift & bunga telur..aiyooooo..iskkk..so after this..me akan pening + penat utk siapkan gift utk guest kat dewan..have to wrap the potpouri with the kain net, ikat with riben, then masuk dalam bekas besi kerawang yg me beli..nak kene buat 1300 lak tuh..iskk...tu belum masuk include sticker nama kitaorg lagik tu..hmmm..pity me..luckily my papa agreeed wif my choice utk gifts tu..hehehhe..well..dia tau i got good taste ;p

BTW, i'll be out of town (outstation) from tomorrow until friday..haiyo ade keje la..iskk..i'm so tired..when can i have a break? ermmm :(

errMMmm..

my aunt called my when i was in a meeting just now..she's asking on the preparation....finally after i asked her on how to 'rebus' a good telur..then she offered her help...ermmm...

IteM...

Things settled as at 080807...

- ballroom reservation
- baju for reception (with package)
- baju for nikah (with package)
- catering for nikah & reception
- canopy for nikah
- make-up package for nikah & reception
- selection of wedding invitation card (to finalize)
- emcee (reception)
- photographer (both events)
- baju for my lil sis
- rental of dulang hantaran
- PIC for gubahan hantaran
- guests list
- hantaran (baru 1..iskkk..)

ermm...there are so many things more un-settle yet...haiiiyyooo... :(

SicK..

I hate the feeling of getting sick...i am right now..with my body temperature, flu, coughing..hmmm...the cause?? simple..coz i'm too tired..tired..tired..PLUS..too worried on the preparation..nothing so far that is crystal clear to me at the moment..arrgghhhh...feel like to scream.... wish my mama is here :( i 200% guarantee that i won't be in this situation if my mama still alive...it's totally different when you are in this situation but your family is around supporting you compared to mine rite now..the only person around are my dad & my fiance..but sometimes the chemistry isn't there between me & my dad..the only person i can express all my feeling is my abg (fiance laa) ...how sad i am on the preparation, how worried i am on it...how tired i am right now...EVERYTHING...imagine you are organizing your own wedding in such a very big event ALONE?? can you?...PLUS with no experience at all??.. with the total number of guests almost 1800, with those protocols..arrggHHhhhhHHHhhh...God please help me..i'm feeling so down right now.. :( :(

* miss my mama* :(

ArggHHHHhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this is my wedding!! i repeat..my wedding!!..BUT....


arrrghhhhhHHHHhhhhh...hate those people... :( :(

bz..bz..bz...

bz..bz..bz...borink..hope to spend more time coz time now is very valueable..with the heatic preparation...i've tried to accomodate my time the best that i can..but yet..hmm..so frustrated.. :(

*really frustrated* :( :( :(

errmm..BTW, tomorrow's plan for shopping wif him has been cancelled..well..dia ade futsal match (argghh!!!!!!!!!!..why now??) hmmm..ok then..me will still go somewhere..but still dunno where..thinking of to cut short my hair (frust??..hahahahahahha) DAMN!!!!...but i'll go somewhere..that's for SURE... *sob sob* well..nxt week is going to be wasted coz nothing can be done..hahahahha...well..best ape...sume dh dekat...xleh nak wat ape...hahahahahhaa..keh keh keh..kui kui kui.. *sob sob*...


p/s:..why sometimes people dun realize how valueable the time is at this moment...hmmmmm