:)

she'll be back on 23rd sept & i've applied for 2 days leave...yeehhaaaa ;)

taraaaaaa.........

last friday i went out wif my friends during lunch break...they brought me to "Warisan Ibunda Melayu" in bangsar..it's a pre-post natal centre..i just went there to check on my womb & fertility...keh keh keh..alhamdulillah..everything is fine...but the most important thing is that i finally knew where i can get that kind of service in KL for my future confinement period..well, as u know, my mom dah meninggal...so sape lagi nak take care of me during my confinement nanti..i definitely don't wanna to stay at my hubby's kampung for that period..i wanna him to be by my side..lagipun it's better for him to learn so that for our future kids, he'll know how to take care of me..hehehehe...cuma the cost is quite high..they have in-house & away service..for 44 days service, it will cost around RM8000+...gulppp...but it's ok kot...my dad pun suka dgn that service..well.... kene pikir back-up plan la kan...one of my friend who's going to deliver this coming december ni pun planned to get someone from terengganu just to take care of her during her confinement..so i can get some info from her too...well, nampaknye dalam my siblings, takde sape pun yang sempat my late mom jaga during confinement..ape nak buat...errmm....anyway, tomorrow is thursday...yiippiiii..can't wait to send gift for my mom...last week tak dpt..but alhamdulillah ade tahlil utk arwah last week..

errr...agaknya bila kita nak buat benda baik...setan ske ganggu yek...tapi camne pun kene control..makin dekat..makin byk dugaan...maklumla nk wat bnda baik...so far alhamdulillah...smua under control...erkkk...65 days more to go..aiyoo...

esok i'm takin leave..actually my off-in lieu leave laa..coz mase pegi team building hari tu, me entitle to get 1 day...so amik esok...so esok plan nak gi bank jap...then mlm if jadi, nak keluar tgk merdeka celebration wif my fiance..tu pun if x hujan...if hujan lepak umah je..then the rest of the weekend, siapkan wedding gift...berlambak lagi..isskkk...baru siap 1 kotak..then beli wedding ring for both of us...haaaa..yang ni tak sabar...keh keh keh...coz i really luv ring...kui kui kui...lagipun 2nd sept ni last day habib sales...cuma for him not sure nak beli ring ape..plantinum bleh pakai kan? if i'm not mistaken laa..if suasa, he can wear..but tak cantik sgt la...coz the color is similar with yellow gold...eeuuuwww...takpelaa...kita tgk nanti..we plan to go to habib main showroom in ampang...sebab nak dpt more variety choices...my choice? ntah..maybe nak triology..but taktau la if dah sampai sana nanti rambang mata..hahhahaha...kdg plan beli lain..lastly beli yang lain..keh keh keh...

eMotiOnal...

am i important for ......??
no i'm NOT...
because??
coz i'm an UGLY DUCKLING...."gggrrrrrr.."


jangan dekat atau jangan datang kepadaku lagi
aku semakin terseksa kerana tak memilikimu
ku cuba jalani hari dengan pengganti dirimu
tapi hatiku selalu berpihak lagi padamu
mengapa semua ini terjadi kepadaku
tuhan maafkan diri ini
yang tak pernah bisa menjauh dari angan tentangnya
namun apalah daya ini
bila ternyata sesungguhnya aku terlalu cinta dia


this is one of my fav song..by rossa..title "terlalu cinta"..i really luv tis song coz the melody is so beautiful & the lyrics ..errr..the lyrics is.....well, u guys might wondering why am i so into tis song..the reason is simple...coz it really touches me...

*emotional..uncertainty..feeling down*

Fav

aku wanita yang punya cinta di hati
ada dirimu dan dirinya dalam hidupku
mengapa terlambat cintamu telah termiliki
sedang diriku dengan dia tak begitu cinta
mengapa yang lain bisa mendua dengan mudahnya
namun kita terbelenggu dalam ikatan tanpa cinta
atas nama cinta hati ini tak mungkin terbahagi
sampai nanti bila aku mati
cinta ini hanya untuk engkau
atas nama cinta kurelakan jalanku merana
asal engkau akhirnya denganku
ku bersumpah atas nama cinta

really luv this song...

:(

really miss my mama.. especially on thurdays... :(

:)

Things going smoothly rite now...alhamdulillah :)

sick...again...

i'm sick again..why? as usual..i'm really tired..i reached here from sabah around 2am 18/8/07..12pm on the same day, i have to go to my kursus kawin & it ended yesterday at 7pm..so now u understand why i'm so tired? and..i can't take leave for the whole this week coz of office commitment ... mama..i need a break :(

$

Last weekend i went to my abg's hometown to settle our andam package..the price is so different compared to mine in KL..i wish i can get that range of price here..isskkk...mahalnye kat KL ni eh..

before that, before we reached his house, we went to Ayer Itam for window shopping..but as usual, me tak reti nak window2 nih..me terus beli gift utk guests (for the nikah ceremony)..very nice..original price rm7..but after less, rm3.50 per item..i bought 230 pieces..then on our way back to kl, singgah ke Nilai 3...i bought gift for guest (reception)..original price is rm2.90 per item, but after less, managed to get rm2 per item..so i bought 1300 ...then i bought bunga telur..very nice..color white & silver..cost me almost rm200 for 150 batang..overall last wknd (2 days) i've spent almost rm3000 just for the gift & bunga telur..aiyooooo..iskkk..so after this..me akan pening + penat utk siapkan gift utk guest kat dewan..have to wrap the potpouri with the kain net, ikat with riben, then masuk dalam bekas besi kerawang yg me beli..nak kene buat 1300 lak tuh..iskk...tu belum masuk include sticker nama kitaorg lagik tu..hmmm..pity me..luckily my papa agreeed wif my choice utk gifts tu..hehehhe..well..dia tau i got good taste ;p

BTW, i'll be out of town (outstation) from tomorrow until friday..haiyo ade keje la..iskk..i'm so tired..when can i have a break? ermmm :(

errMMmm..

my aunt called my when i was in a meeting just now..she's asking on the preparation....finally after i asked her on how to 'rebus' a good telur..then she offered her help...ermmm...

IteM...

Things settled as at 080807...

- ballroom reservation
- baju for reception (with package)
- baju for nikah (with package)
- catering for nikah & reception
- canopy for nikah
- make-up package for nikah & reception
- selection of wedding invitation card (to finalize)
- emcee (reception)
- photographer (both events)
- baju for my lil sis
- rental of dulang hantaran
- PIC for gubahan hantaran
- guests list
- hantaran (baru 1..iskkk..)

ermm...there are so many things more un-settle yet...haiiiyyooo... :(

SicK..

I hate the feeling of getting sick...i am right now..with my body temperature, flu, coughing..hmmm...the cause?? simple..coz i'm too tired..tired..tired..PLUS..too worried on the preparation..nothing so far that is crystal clear to me at the moment..arrgghhhh...feel like to scream.... wish my mama is here :( i 200% guarantee that i won't be in this situation if my mama still alive...it's totally different when you are in this situation but your family is around supporting you compared to mine rite now..the only person around are my dad & my fiance..but sometimes the chemistry isn't there between me & my dad..the only person i can express all my feeling is my abg (fiance laa) ...how sad i am on the preparation, how worried i am on it...how tired i am right now...EVERYTHING...imagine you are organizing your own wedding in such a very big event ALONE?? can you?...PLUS with no experience at all??.. with the total number of guests almost 1800, with those protocols..arrggHHhhhhHHHhhh...God please help me..i'm feeling so down right now.. :( :(

* miss my mama* :(

ArggHHHHhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this is my wedding!! i repeat..my wedding!!..BUT....


arrrghhhhhHHHHhhhhh...hate those people... :( :(

bz..bz..bz...

bz..bz..bz...borink..hope to spend more time coz time now is very valueable..with the heatic preparation...i've tried to accomodate my time the best that i can..but yet..hmm..so frustrated.. :(

*really frustrated* :( :( :(

errmm..BTW, tomorrow's plan for shopping wif him has been cancelled..well..dia ade futsal match (argghh!!!!!!!!!!..why now??) hmmm..ok then..me will still go somewhere..but still dunno where..thinking of to cut short my hair (frust??..hahahahahahha) DAMN!!!!...but i'll go somewhere..that's for SURE... *sob sob* well..nxt week is going to be wasted coz nothing can be done..hahahahha...well..best ape...sume dh dekat...xleh nak wat ape...hahahahahhaa..keh keh keh..kui kui kui.. *sob sob*...


p/s:..why sometimes people dun realize how valueable the time is at this moment...hmmmmm

The MaraThon BegiNs...

semlm dah start pening..pening in sense of the preparation..starting from yesterday, the preparation will be all out coz time limitation..well..dah tak sampai 3 bln lagik...aiyarakkk!!..

yesterday right after work, me & abg went to jln TAR..we went there to bought kain for my lil sis at Gulatis for my events..i bought 2 kains (pink & blue) & planned to send for tailoring today right after work..but today i'll be goin' alone as my abg will be having his table tennis training kat opis...after that went to tempah our baju nikah at pertama complex..so the our baju expected to siap on 3/10/07 but the tailor will call me before that to confirm on the color of my manik2..hehehehhe...

then we went to survey for our wedding card (abg's side)..the pakcik was really nice (tak paksa2 pun we all beli dgn dia..the price pun was really reasonable)..so finally we decided to take the card & abg will go there during lunch time today to confirm on our names & draft of location..erkkk..cam dah tak percaya pulak dah tempah wedding card...dah nak dekat kawin ye? ermmm...takutnye.. :(...hik hik..;p

after that we had our dinner..tengah2 dinner tetiba decide nak ke sogo coz abg tetiba nak carik kasut nk pakai keje & mase nikah..lerr...that time was already 9.15pm..ermm..redah je laaa..when we reached there, the store was still open..BUT...as usual coz my abg ni very fussy..pilih punye pilih punye pilih..tang nak mintak size yg berkenan lak tetiba mamat jaga kasut tu kata dah takleh amik size tu coz store dah tutup..sogo dah announce nak tutup..frust abg..keh keh keh...tu lerr...pilih lama sgt...kan dah terlepas..;p me lak yang tetiba sempat shopping brg hantaran utk dia..hehehehehhe..kita yg tak plan ape lak yang beli...kui kui kui...takpe laa...we planned to go there again tomorrow..coz mmg dah kene start shopping hantaran pun..lagipun next mnth sale dah abih *sob sob*...

on the way back my kepala cam nak pecah..terpaksa stop tepi jln coz tak tahan..migrain...and tambah lak me was so tired coz takde rest..abg pun stop (dia drive blkg my car coz our home dekat jer)...after me mkn ubat skit..then ok skit ler..drive slow2 balik..but abg ikut my car sampai umah risau me tgh biol kot..hahahahhaa...today?? dah ok skit..but still feel very very TIRED!!...huwarrgghhhh..i need a break!!! i need rest!!... :(

TiRed

A very tiring weekend...like hell..iskkk..i just came back from by team building program..i was reallyt enjoyed but too tired...hik hik hik..well..just to cap the programs, we reached PD around 4pm on friday..then after checked-in, i went down to play volleyball & beach soccer with my friends..actually we were free that time & can organize anything that we want..so my friends especially the guys wanted to play volleyball & soccer and asked us to join them..so we did..it was really fun..and i was like lupa dunia..in sense of 'lupa kaki' ler coz my ankle kan tak baik lagi...hahahaha..so bengkak la balik..kui kui kui...that nite after our dinner & class, we had our karaoke contest..hehhehehe..i sang 1 song..keh keh keh..so malu when all of them were looking at me...ihiksss...

the next day after class around 6pm, we had our tele-matches..byk gak game lerr..again..me lupe dunia lagik..ahhahahaha..the worst game was tarik tali lerr...sebab my kaki was hurt badly after that..waakakakakakkaa...

mlm tu, after class we just played UNO in my friend's room..although we were so asleep, but we still continued playing until smua color kad tak nampak color dah..terbiol-biol mata....barula we stopped..hehehehhe...

on sunday, after lunch we went home...my abg fetch me at my office and he teman me rest kat rumah..tgk tv & borak-borak ...rindu... ;p

iHikks...

it was a very long discussion between me, my abg & the planner on our wedding..keh keh keh...ade his ideas yang been rejected by me, & ade mine yg been rejected too...BUT..most of my ideas been accepted & he was impressed that i do know very details on every single thing for the event..so guys..in future if u require the planner service, pls do make a research first, so that they won't kelentong u...kelentong in sense that ade certain benda that u tak payah ade, but they said u should have.,.well, of coz it will increase your cost laa..so like mine yesterday, im quite satisfied (so far)...so now i'm waiting for him to discuss wif my dad on the budget..then to discuss back wif me on the final proposal...muehhehehee....


psssttt..hope my dad agreed wif my choice of the wedding card..kui kui kui...

PlaNneR

i'll be meeting syam (the planner) tonite wif my dad & my fiance..he'll be coming over to my house & we will be discussing on the wedding event (nikah & reception). i asked him to bring along his proposal & his previous assignments for me to have a look..and of coz i'm goin' to show him mine too...ihiksss...well..i expect that tonite me & my dad will be arguing on the prepration..kui kui kui...of coz la...our taste is totally different..sure my dad akan keluar statemment "sape yang bayar?"..and me akan kuar statement "sape yang nak kawin?"..and ntah2 the planner akan kuar statement " hello..sape yang nak kene buat semua?"...kah kah kah...and my abg surely akan pening tgk kitaorg..ahahahahaha...well...well...nak kawin pun susah..tak kawin pun susah...haiyaaaa..wa manyak pening woo...

ihiksss..ape la jadik mlm ni eh??

AparT Too.. ;p

pic of laily erlinawati & mohd rizan (full name tu..keh keh keh ;p)



tomorrow we're goin' to be apart too..but only for 2 days laa..i'll be back on sunday...dun be naughty arr abg ;p

ApaRt..

We are now apart... :(

KaRaoKe

we are going to have our karaoke contest tomorrow nite..it's part of our infromal team building activities..heheheheh..i'll join the contest..nak nyanyi lagu ape eh?? kui kui kui..told my abg about that..he jeles coz susah nak dgr me nyanyi.. tapi if depan org lain, me buleh nyanyi..depan dia..oopsss..lidahku kelu..wakakakakaka...ala..relax la abg..my voice is not good laa..wasting ur time je dengar..kah kah kah....

pssttt...wondering my little sis makan ape yek hari ni? :(